Bye @ 2009

This will be the last entry for 2009 lols

actually this blog has no particular meaning or what so ever...juz feel like it to hav a last entry of 2009 b4 it ends lols...

like Foamy said : "every year is the same damn year"... especially for those who did nothing and contribute nothing at all... i hav no clue, why people celebrate new year every year if they gonna do the same mistake over and over again... well, i do not reli celebrate it, except wishing my frens happy new year...

hmm...I did had fun throughout 2009 and lots of things had changed too... it could be worse thou lols...

so here I wish my family and all my frens (and also whoever are reading this) a happy new year, hope u hav a great year ahead. Enjoy~

-Song playing : None

W.A.Y.

...Where are you?

-Song playing : Here Without You by 3 Doors Down

Alone

惨淡的月光映在你逐渐消失的身影。

空气杀那间凝结，白雾是泪水的化身还是叹气的心痛？谁知晓？谁在意？

让冷空气包围，提醒自己你已不在的拥抱。

我望着前方，却什么也看不见，少了你，未来就像断了一样。

你的离开带来无声的夜，无底的洞，无心的爱，无尽的路，那我还剩什么？

我站在一个人的舞台，跳着漫长的曲，芭蕾的柔美，天鹅的悲伤，却不会累。

灯光打在我身上，舞台下唯一看见的是台上的泪光。

我不停地旋转，目光只锁在你离去的出口，泪却让我看不清。

会晕吗？不会。

我在等待，等待着你再一次出现，握住我的手，稳住我的步，跳不再寂寞的舞曲，演两个人的故事。
每一划，一勾，一踏，一跳都宣誓着华丽的心疼。

我不累却在跌下后站不起来，麻木地坐在台上，
犹如垂败的天鹅，沉溺在寂静的湖，感受没有温度的月光。

灯光打在舞台上，广阔的舞台，一首歌，一个背影，一滴泪，一世的等待。

-Rachel, 2008

This entry is dedicated to my pen-pal Rachel, who loves drawing as I do... but nowadays she's more busy sharpening her language lols... so she wrote this to me last time on messenger... I promised her to try my best to draw it out... But in the end I think it's cooler with the help of photoshop instead of drawing it all by myself, since my drawing skills never improved much...

Sorry coz I'm too lazy to translate all of them into English - - lols...

P/S to Rachel : Heys, sorry I took that long to make this 1 lols...and you forgot to give me a title !! lols

-Song playing : 如果我变成回忆(If I Became Memories ) by Tank

原来...

以前的我，像一个迷失方向的船...

在风雨中徘徊...为了找到自己的避风港...

一直寻寻觅觅...寻寻觅觅...

现在的我，则像一个的港口...

让船只停泊，避雨...然后再看着船只一一离去...

剩下的只有等待...等待...

原来有了梦以后，梦醒了会更难过...

原来不是只要有付出，就一定能得到回报...

原来不会因为痛过了哭过了，就因此而不哭...

原来还是会害怕寂寞...

原来自己谁都不是...

-Song playing : 分裂(Broke Apart) by Jay Chou

I am not surprised....

I've practiced this for hours, gone round and round

And now I think that I've got it all down

And as I say it louder, I love how it sounds

Cause I'm not taking the easy way out

Not wrappin' this in ribbons

Shouldn't have to give a reason why

It's no surprise I won't be here tomorrow

I can't believe that I stayed till today

Yeah you and I will be a tough act to follow

But I know in time we'll find this was no surprise

It came out like a river once I let it out

When I thought that I wouldn't know how

Held onto it forever, just pushing it down

Felt so good to let go of it now

Not wrapping this in ribbons

Shouldn't have to give a reason why

It's no surprise I won't be here tomorrow

I can't believe that I stayed till today

There's nothing here in this heart left to borrow

There's nothing here in this soul left to say

Don't be surprised when we hate this tomorrow

God knows we tried to find an easier way

Yeah you and I will be a tough act to follow

But I know in time we'll find this was no surprise

Our favorite place we used to go

The warm embrace that no one knows

The loving look that's left your eyes

That's why this comes as no,

As no surprise

If I could see the future and how this plays out

I bet it's better than where we are now

But after going through this

It's easier to see the reason why

It's no surprise I won't be here tomorrow

I can't believe that I stayed till today

Yeah you and I will be a tough act to follow

But I know in time we'll find this was no surprise

Our favorite place we used to go

The warm embrace that no one knows

The loving look that's left your eyes

But I know in time we'll find this was no surprise

-Song playing : No Surprise by Daughtry

Roads apart....

To A Friend Who Used To Be:

It doesn't matter to me anymore, neither to you...you never read my blog anyway...

7 years.... It's been fun....

I will remember the songs we sang togather....

I know you wont... since your memories will only use on him... I'm fine with it...

Just to let you know: I wont forget....and yes, it hurts for remembering it....

Never thought that a friendship could be this fragile...

I've been telling you these all this while...

But now...

These are the only thing I can say to you, and the only thing I will say to you...

Good luck.....Take care....Thanks for everything...

-Song playing :珊瑚海(Sea of Corals) by Jay Chou

...Can I Love You?

...Can I Love You?

-Song playing : 心跳(Heart Beats) by Lee Hom

Juz Started Training ...

don't have much time to blog lately...1 thing is becoz every time come back from work most like i'll be exhausted...

summo now in training...nd to change my sleeping time back to normal ppl.... as in sleep at night , works at days...

*I MISS MY CAMPUS LIFE BACK THEN T.T* (er...more like the sleeping part actually XD)

nw every weekdays need to wake up at 6.30am in the morning... which I rarely applied it back in campus life even i got 8am class lol... and in juz 1 week time, i even developed the habits of taking shower and eating breakfast *in the morning*(need to emphasize the word morning lol)...which again...almost never happened to me before this = = lol it's a good thing i guess XD lol...

well , nd to sleep edi... gotta wake up early... i almost late to work this morning lol... will try to update bout my training life when i'm free... so far the only hang out thing i did here is went clubbing wif Kiki last week, ended up nearly cant make it back at home lol... drank too much lol... thx Alex again for guiding me home while i was driving lol...

till then...


-Song playing : White Eyes by Gackt

When Love Story meets Viva La Vida

Was told by my pet sis bout this song.... at first I was like

"Ok......love story and viva la vida?...hmmm...."

Then moments later, Jo told me about this song again....

So I went to check out this song on youtube...

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Really speechless... damn nice the song... If u guys like Love Story or Viva La Vida or both.... this song, for me at least, is a must to my songs collection....

It's a piano & cello combination.... by Jon Schmidt as the pianist while his friend plays the cello...

here's the video :

or u can go to this link:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0v3d6SFcDys


hope you all enjoy this song as much as I do... really can't wait till they come out with the song in mp3.... and I have to say... these 2 fella really enjoy music ....A LOT... c the way when they're playing the song...



-Song playing(on youtube) : Love Story Meets Viva La Vida by Jon Schmidt

Random - 2 : Emo

Getting too laid back this few days after submitted 1 assignment and finished off a few exams... It's not good coz I still got 2 assignments = =

Juz came back from town after brought Kiki, my childhood friend and her bf went around Malacca and ate some nice food (for me at least lol)...PK edi... sien... I need money ~...lots lots of money XD...haiz guess I spent too much on food d...time for me to go for diets or something like tat d...

Recently get addicted to this song...heard this song when I was hanging up wif my frens in McDonald for supper... Nice song indeed... Dunno why recently I kinda like addicted to emo songs lol...

A Little Not Too Over You by David Archuleta

Oohh....
It never crossed my mind at all
It's what I tell myself
What we had has come and gone
You're better off with someone else
It's for the best, I know it is
But I see you
Sometimes I try to hide
What I feel inside
And I turn around
You're with him now
I just can't figure it out

Tell me why it's so hard to forget
Don't remind me, I'm not over it
Tell me why I can't seem to face the truth
I'm just a little too not over you
Not over you....

Memories, supposed to fade
What's wrong with my heart?
Shake it off, let it go
Didn't think it'd be this hard
Should be strong, movin' on
But I see you
Sometimes I try to hide
What I feel inside
And I turn around
You're with him now
I just can't figure it out

Tell me why it's so hard to forget
Don't remind me, I'm not over it
Tell me why I can't seem to face the truth
I'm just a little too not over you

Maybe I regret everything I said
No way to take it all back, yeah...
Now I'm on my own
How I let you go, I'll never understand
I'll never understand, yeah, oohh..
Oohhh, oohhh, oohhhh...
Oohhh, ooohhhh, oohhh...

Tell me why it's so hard to forget
Don't remind me, I'm not over it
Tell me why I can't seem to face the truth
I'm just a little too not over you

Tell me why it's so hard to forget
Don't remind me, I'm not over it
Tell me why I can't seem to face the truth
And I really don't know what to do
I'm just a little too not over you
Not over you, oohhh...

*look at the clock*...It's already 6am in the morning....time to sleep...Till then...

P/S : HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY @ Crystal Sue =)


-Song playing : A Little Not Too Over You by David Archuleta

About Life...

Receive an email from Xia... not the 1st time I receive those emails with nice and meaningful messages.... but dunno why today I could feel it while reading it....

The email is about a married couple.... the bride had terminal cancer... yet it was not stopping the couple from the marriage... unfortunately, she died...five days after that..... but when looked at those photos they took during their wedding, one thing is definite... The smile on their face... The feelings of happiness....


Moral of this story? ...well...depends on u guys... I know somebody gonna give me silly answers... I dun give a dam bout these people...

Well... Life IS short... and most of the time, life is not exactly as the one we are hoping for...But heys... as long as we are still breathing... as long as we have dreams to chase after... as long as there is love is this world.... life is actually not bad as u think... there are lots of people out there, suffer more than you do....

For God's sake... some people getting upset over shitty things like : not enough money to buy stuff they want...too many house chores to do... no much variety of food to eat during recess time...

Do you know that there people out there, only has 1 dollar,maybe less to spend in one day for food and stuff?
Do you know that there people out there don't even has a house to live?
Do you know how many children in poor countries died of starving every day?

For those you don't know...seriously, you need some helps....

I feel pathetic to those who don't appreciate of what they have , yet still asking for what they don't have... If anyone tell me that those misfortunes are karma to those people... GO KILL YOURSELF... Don't get me wrong, I do believe in karma... the thing is, I'm not asking for you to feel pity and must help those people in return....I'm saying...pls....appreciate your life now... especially students nowadays.... life without hot girls, too much assignments, strict family, not enough money is suck? Try live in place where's having wars any time, with no freedom to go out anytime you want, worrying wether your place will be bombarded or you kitchen always run out of food supply or worrying: WILL I GET KILLED TODAY?... and don't fuck with me with your "Die la...not enough time to finish assignment" or "I will die without internet connection"... you have no idea at some countries, hoping for safety are not even possible...

Again, again, and again...

I just hoping u guys... appreciate your life... even if you don't, I don't give a fuck... it's your life... just remember : more smiles, less hatred.... more appreciation, less complains... Life is good actually depends on how you look at it :)

Ok...times to continue my studies...got exam in less than 12 hours time yet I'm blogging lol

Till den~

*Teaser* upcoming post : Cyber Fusion 09'... still working on the post and gathering photos... will post it when it's done lol...ya i know, I delayed again...


-Song playing : Sacrifice by Creed

Threatened

Officially 2 months never update my poor little blog...sorry guys... not because I'm lazy.... but I was really busy back then... and then lots of stuff happened which made me can't go online and blogging.... I already have 2 pending blog entries in my account = =" 1 is my PD trip with my family during CNY and another 1 is Valentines....

Haiz....

In this entry....Juz wanna sum up what happened recently, what am I going to do and some random thoughts of mine these days... and to "deco" my blog so it don't looks outdated too much lol XD

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Summary of my life recently :

We juz finished 4 performances... another last performance in April... kinda happy since we receive more offer these semester but kinda tired as well....*phew*...

Looking at upcoming assignments and projects are killing me .... and it's not like I want to blame my lecturer...but why the heck give us such assignment only when it's end of week 5? ...other subjects having the same assignment already started since week 1.... haiz.... well, at least he cut off some parts and we don't need to do the full program... but collaboration between each and single group will be v crucial nw....

My phone's battery was spoiled = ="...cannot talk on phone for long else the battery die on the spot... damn afraid to recharge it every time coz I scare it will expose lol... already reminded myself to get a new battery but keep on forgotten...

Went for IBM test last 2 week... was waiting for their call till my neck grew like giraffe edi lol..... Most like I will able to work there if at least I pass the test....*start praying*... lol reli can't wait for the days to come...days working in IBM ...kinda nervous thou... finally they called me last week... but even thou I passed the test... my status is still not confirm yet...so basically... WAITING again lol...

But at the same time...problems came in...not just me, I believe there are students facing the same problems like me too... Our resume were sent out to other companies RANDOMLY by our beloved lecturers...some at least asked us before they submit but some...huh... without any question... and once they shortlisted us, we can't even ask to take us out from the list... and we CAN NOT reject the offers once any company want to take us no matter it's our preferred choice....

Yeah, decision rights are totally at their hands which I do not have a problem at all... the problem is they don't respect our decision and whenever we tried to talk to them nicely... what do we get? >>> Get farking scolded and screwed upside down, inside out by them... and said we are demanding and wasted their efforts looking for company for us... what ever... yeah I know sitting in the air-con room , clicking the mouse and making a few calls are very hard and tiring because can't go home early after work...

So again, I do not have any problem with the decision rights of the lecturers... the thing is... we can't contact the companies inside the lecturers' lists by ourselves.... and heck, they cover most of the good companies we can think of... so it's not like we don't know which company to choose from the beginning... we KNEW... just that we are forced to go under faculty placement instead of own placement... if we were found out contacting those companies under own placement >>>>> Say goodbye to your industrial training...no training for you !! HAHA....

Here is my humble suggestion : farking allow us to contact the companies by ourselves k?... for those who don't know how to take the initiative, is their own problems, don't blame us who worked so hard on everything and said it's unfair for them... fark that.... they can ask for helps from lecturers and THEN tell them lecturers have the total right to decide their status since they ask for it....

Besides...I think all of this happen coz last time there were students screwed things up... making the lecturers need to do all this to us.... something like a student was demanding, till he rejected all offers except for one that he was hoping to get...in the end, failed...and he then went back to the lecturer and beg for the companies that he rejected... which is rather pathetic to me if there's some one doing this right now...


Proofs? these are some of the words we heard from our lecturer...
-"You sure you want to reject this offer and wait for XXXX company? Are you going to ask me to short list you again if you failed?"
-Stop being demanding, as a student you shoudn't be demanding" "No, it's not ma'am...I want to...." "Yes you ARE"


and here's some shit which I personally received from a beloved lecturer:
"If you want to be demanding, I'll just put you in own placement instead,how about that?"
"...."
"So you want me to put in under own placement?"
"Ma'am, it seems like I don't have a choice isn't it ?"
"YES , you don't have a choice."
"...Alright. I will go for the interview." (pissed)
"Good. Let me say it again. You don't have the right to reject any interview or offer. If not, I will put in under own placement."
"Yes yes" (pissed)
"And one more thing. If I hear anything which I don't like to hear from that company, I will not allow you to continue your training next semester. IS.THAT. CLEAR? "
"......clear"(tried my best to control my tone)
(then she hang up the phone)

What kinda attitude is this? and she's threatening me didn't she?.... I'm not a coward, but I know what to do is the best, and there's a few of thing i need to take care of...so I didn't let my anger to overtake my mind that moment... things would had gone ugly if I don't... and most likely will bring chain reactions upon other students as well... so I ate all the shit and swallowed them all that day.... and I'm still pissed of right now whenever I think about it... Arggg... I told myself do not live with hatreds... but this one....I've never feel like slapping anyone this much before...

well... nothing I can do for now...just wanna enjoy my one week holidays before all the assignments start throwing in...and I'm sleepy now after bz for the whole day...


P/S : Miss you Granpa


-Song playing : Home by Daughtry

a short break...

back to my sweet, quiet, peaceful hometown...

looked at my blog... damn... it's totally outdated !! uh!!... what to do? I was so busy before and even after my bloody exam last 2 weeks ago, and even I finish my exams, I don't have the time to do my own stuff...I can't event play games or online or blogging for god's sake.... on top of that, I can't even sleep nicely T.T... simply bz man...to be honest... ever since my exam finished, now only I have the time to sit down and start harassing my keyboard (keyboard: wtf?? ) lol /XD


see... after my exam, I got some sort of "intensive training" for the following 2 days for my pipa... there will be a Chinese orchestra concert coming April, and my seniors encouraged us (new members/ students regardless which instrument are we learning...) to participate in the performance.... so I went...but the problem is, I don't see the point of putting so much effort already... I did at first... but not anymore... not until at least the pipa me and my friends ordered since 6 months ago reach our hands man!! Our teacher still can't get them from his friend, who he claimed that he already bought them and brought them over from Singapore... but heck... 6 months... we still empty handed... all of them even new students can just practice at home during holidays coz they have their own instruments... but only us who learn pipa...haha... for god's sake...we still need to borrow from the society... and we can't bring back to our hometown... coz those are the society's properties :| ...I understand that...but I totally lost the passion to join the coming orchestra man... not this year at least...

*I WANT MY PIPA!!* /floor

right after that "training"... next 2 days, I got society works to do... Chinese New Year Event on next semester... I'm the working committee... so need to help out to build some props stuff for the event... tightening the canes till my fingers turned red lol... anyway... still they are ppl enjoying there instead of doing works anyway... that's what I don't like... but glad to made some new friends during these 2 days coz I didn't went for the camp for all the working committees... so I don't even really know all my colleges in this event = ="...

so, I had my exams on Thursday and Friday... orchestra practices on Saturday and Sunday... event preparations on Monday and Tuesday....... I was totally worn out ... and for some personal reasons... I need to stay in Malacca till Thursday only can go back my home town... so basically I already finished 1st week of my holiday by that time.... minus off another few days to do the cleaning thingy and shopping... and of cos few days of CNY with my cousins... I only have like...I dunno... ONE WEEK of holiday this time actually /omg...

I need more rest also... /floor

P/S : I know I didn't update my blog for the pass 2 weeks... but I have reason /please... I couldn't help it... too many things happened which stopped me from blogging... but at least I'm back now right? /XD



-Song playing : Tomorrow's Way by YUI